Confusion Poem by Ronan james

I don't know what it is that is making so
I don't why I cannot just let it go
My thoughts are swirling over and over
Like waves against the white cliffs of Dover

If only I admitted it I could let it go
but if I do how will it show
will I be thought less of by those who know me
or will I be remembered for my courage in my obituary

I think if I could just let it go I will be free
To do whatever that will please me
but I still cant bring myself to do it completely
I cannot stop that small bit of hope from reamining in me