Contradiction Poem by Nina gáspari

And here I am again
I guess I dreamed in vain
And there you are
silly me, I never thought we´d be apart
you say this situation´s too conflicting
But it´s you I´m already missing
My castle of sand is now doomed
this infatuation´s got me consumed
And it´s your eyes I need, your smile I see
and your laugh I long to hear
Where should I look at right now
Cause you won´t be around
I wanna beg you not to go
but I can´t be selfish, maybe i should let you go
keep it to myself and you won´t ever know my heart smiles at you
This is too contradictory and confusing
My heart and mind have agreed to disagree
They both want different things for me
And I wonder..is it you..or is it me? ?