Crying Every Day Poem by Kenny Mantinelli

I can't see your name,
I can't see your face;
What happened, has happened,
And it can't be erased.

The pain has ensued,
Like a gouged blister;
A feeling I've never known,
Even through gaining sisters.

I can't handle this,
As easily as I thought;
You threw me a curveball,
One that I couldn't have caught.

Every day I find something else,
Something that sounds like a lie;
And it hurts so much,
Only so much more until I die.

I've given up more than you know,
Just to be what you need;
And I still can't satisfy you,
You still take lead.

It's not you that saddens me,
It's what happens when you're not around;
The things that I've read...
The things that I've found...

Sometimes I sit here and wonder,
Do you even know how much I care?
Do you even care how much I know?
Do you even recognize the love that's there?

I'm so very insecure,
And all of this makes it worse;
If it doesn't start getting better,
I'll be in the back of a hearse.

My life is just ticking away,
And this is speeding up the rate;
So please slow it back down,
Bring it back to a stable state.

Everything feels like a lie today,
While everything was fine yesterday;
And everything may die tomorrow,
But I can't keep crying every day.