wordless thoughts, memories scrawled thru out my mind, feelings so
distraught, as i slowly unwind, with nothing more to do with my time. for
awhile i was mute, no poems came from me, now in total dispute, from
what my eyes did not see. i let another use me again, letting him in, and
to fill my heart within. but he stompped all over my self esteem, right
now my smile falls short of a gleam, thought we were perfect together,
well to me thats what is seemed. everything was going so good, but
it crumbled away, like i knew it would. the pains unbearable, but i seem
to manage, from too many times of being hit n damaged. mental abuse
was the worst of all, planting thoughts in my head to subdue the tears
that fall. all the accusations, i guess they were true, not telling me what
you were REALLY up to, and not knowing of the mischievous acts you
do. i dont know how to make myself see, that he truly didn't love me.
but of course theres always doubt, he did things you'd know nothing
about. we laughed we fought but always after a smile it brought. it
seemed so perfect n yet so unreal, and i dont kno how to make myself
as hard as steel. old habits die hard and ive realized this today, becus
yesterday i felt i could move on but the other way ive swayed. i want you
in my life, that thought doesnt make me think twice. but i relly want sum
one that s gonna be true to me, becus that what i am... but over n over
i choose the wrong ones... damn.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem