Dark Hole Poem by brandy ingram

i feel the feeling again
i see that deep dark hole
coming toward me
im trying to run away
but it keeps catching me and dragging me back
im so tired of fighting
they tell me not to give up
that your stronger then the depression
but my mind keeps telling me i'll never win
that im useless and that its my friend
it says no one loves me and im not worthy
that im stupid and i dont matter
the depression tells me that
i'll never be anything and that things will get worse
it makes me cry and scared with so much hate
so much emptyness so much fate
i try so hard to fight back the monster
but it gets so stressful im an emotional rollercoster

will this ever end i ask my self
will i ever be free of the darkness
will it ever go awat and not come back
those are the answers i dont know
only thing i can do is love and TRUST God! !
i know he will help get through this stunt in my life
once after all he did help me put down that knife
i know that i cant do this on my own
i have to pray and be faithful
yes i know it will be a struggle
but with God all things are possible! !