There is no such thing as free will.
Not with you, at least.
You force me to slowly kill myself.
I'm killing you, the same way you're killing me.
I am taking your force and diminishing it
When I take your furious hits.
Those bright red ones that burn so deep
I don't even wince.
Right now I don't see the consequences
But I know that they are there.
The longer I stay, the harder to leave
But do I really care?
If I didn't want you, why did I start you?
I knew the risk I was running.
I thought I wanted to die right away.
I didn't see the life I was drawing.
I can't be away from you for too long,
I can't let anyone know about you.
I can't take you around my own son...
There are so many things I can't do.
It's all because of you.
And still I can't leave you, why?
You are terrible in every way imaginable
I am not the only one you ruin.
Is leaving you even possible?
Yes.
It's been four days without you.
For the first time in years
I never even went one day
My mind has been so clear.
It's so hard to quit you.
But I refuse to ever choke.
I do not need a crutch anymore.
I DO NOT NEED TO SMOKE.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem