Dear __________, Poem by Cynthia Ramos

We all know what it's like to want something we can't have
And realize what we had when it's already too late.

I believe my desire for you is just that.
A want. Nothing more, nothing less
since I was able to let you go so easily in the first place.

I've been in previous situations where I've wanted someone so badly
but once I had him.. I didn't want to be with him.

Our minds work in strange ways.
Showing us past events that have been tampered with.
They are simply enhanced.

Since I am aware of what might happen..
I am trying to be strong and not let this want..
This dark flame that inflames when I see you.. take over me..
The flame slowly dies out when you are with her.

I try to avoid it as much as possible..
But maybe I need it..
I need to torture myself to get over it.

I just want you.

You said you loved me..

Which I'm still contemplating
If your statement has any truth to it

I crave your looks.
I always catch myself staring..
And sometimes you look my way;
When I'm conversing with others..
the words I'm about to say are suddenly lost.

Sometimes I just go on with the babbling so he continues his gaze

I bet he knows..
He has to..
He has to know what this is doing to me.