We were alive in some other life's February
& we were scared of the unknown
but not enough to - y'know - know more.
Maybe now is not the time
for me to paint the past in a picture of warm nostalgia
or for me to miss drinking Tom Collinses with you
when I now know to say that I don't even like whiskey.
We thought ourselves covert rebels
but only from under the yellow of your apartment's light fixtures
& only for long enough for us to feel less bored.
A lot has changed for me.
I'm still bored - bored of people, bored of places,
bored of whatever it is we have labeled, life -
but I just really care less about all of it.
We had our heads turned away
but only because we knew there was something
to turn our heads away from.
Am I saying that it's better to
look it in the face and scream - I see you! ! ! -?
That, of course, comes with its own consequences.
We were alive at some point (if my memory serves me right)
& what the hell did we do about it?
We waited to die - so we did.
I even began death by stumbling upon ways to waste it.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem