Decision Poem by leanne gil

I’ve decided on this.
To stop my urge to overdose.
It hurts. It kills.
And I know I need to stop.
i’m going to stop.
It only kills me even more.
Every overdose. Every tablet.
Every tear that I shed
Kills me on the inside.
I’m going to live a happier life.
I’m going to move on.
I’m going to be happy.
I’ve stopped.
These tears I shed will be better.
Better than every overdose.
Every tablet in my mouth.
Because I’m only letting the pain out.
Not putting it on the outside.
I do want to talk about my pain.
Instead of hiding it.
I don’t want to die.
I want to be happy inside
I will laugh, smile and have fun.
And forget about all this pain.
So I won’t have the urge to overdose.
I get the help I need.
Through my friends.
Through the ones I trusted with all my heart