Deep Conscious Notions Poem by Josh Ross

You can find beauty in the ugliest things.. when no one really loved you or cared for you I did. When people said it to say it, I meant it. Just because people have treated you badly it doesn't make you ugly, it make your experiences ugly. And now that times are harder you just surrender and tell me to get on with my life and yet still tell me you love me. That's not love it's running away for pain and heart break. I know it's hard for you. I want to help but you won't let me. I can't grasp these complications, I just abide by them to make you happy. But deep down I'm suffering because I only have 1/3 of my babe.. when I need all of her. Makes me feel helpless and dumb for getting in too far. Now I'm drowning and there's nothing to save me but you..