Denial Poem by Jackson Wings

I'm Suicidal but I sit in denial I've been hiding the cuts but soon it won't be enough. I keep fighting with myself I feel theses thing I wish I never felt I've even tried to strangle myself with a belt. There is no more light I just like the night, but I swear I'm missing something in my life. Maybe it's a wife a life that actually has joy but that will never happen because the world stops me from the having things that I really like. There's something inside I have to decline its escape because it's a demon that feeds on my fright. That demon gets to my mind it makes me draw the blade then I'm stuck staring at the mark it has made. I'm so cold, No one knows what I really feel. I won't tell anyone how I feel that's how I'm stuck writing these fighting these demons in the worlds I want to help but no one lets me they say I need help Inside something had to melt cause I'm getting worse and worse every day the pain and shame I carry with me and something inside I can't tame. You all know my name but it's only the readers the world will never really know my name because there is no fame I'm just trapped in this game but it's getting really lame I've cheated death so he's snuck into my mind. By the time he's done and I leave there will be nothing to leave behind. So the wait continues on to someday be revealed but it won't be today Cause we need another way to live another day. Put out a smile stay a little while because you can trick the world with denial.