Depressed Again? Poem by Andjela Antic

Is this the beginning of hell again
The one I went thru last year
Or is it that, that problems follow me
Everyday they are even more near
Is it that feeling of sadness spreading
Running thru my veins again
I question why
To be better I try and try
But if all of the effort I put in this is just going to waste
Why did I try and get better in the first place?
I know I try for me but
What will I do when it starts recognizing on my face
That sadness and some sorrow
The one I thought will make me see no tomorrow