Letting go of this
noon day demon isn't easy.
I've tried for twenty years
and it's still hanging around.
I've tried talk therapy
and so many meds
it would make your head
spin, like mine.
Been listening to a good
(I suppose)book about
surrendering completely
to one's negative feelings.
FEELINGS, not thoughts,
because our thoughts create feelings
and vice versa. By surrendering
we lose our attachment
to negative feelings and
stop feeding them more
negative energy. Get it?
I don't know, maybe.
Maybe by not resisting,
but by cooperating with
my depression I can
exterminate it's hold
on my psyche. But I have to
ask my demon "why do I
want to be depressed? What's
in it for me? "
Since most depression
seems to be caused by
a deep unhappiness,
I'll start there.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem