Depression: Letting Go Poem by Clyde King

Letting go of this
noon day demon isn't easy.
I've tried for twenty years
and it's still hanging around.

I've tried talk therapy
and so many meds
it would make your head
spin, like mine.

Been listening to a good
(I suppose)book about
surrendering completely
to one's negative feelings.

FEELINGS, not thoughts,
because our thoughts create feelings
and vice versa. By surrendering
we lose our attachment

to negative feelings and
stop feeding them more
negative energy. Get it?
I don't know, maybe.

Maybe by not resisting,
but by cooperating with
my depression I can
exterminate it's hold

on my psyche. But I have to
ask my demon "why do I
want to be depressed? What's
in it for me? "

Since most depression
seems to be caused by
a deep unhappiness,
I'll start there.