Different Poem by Natasha Clark

i cant explain whats changed
i dont know how to say it
my body feels different
my soul aches for the wholeness i once knew
i am no longer my self
but a mere shadow of what i used to be
my smile is in hiding and i cant find it
i fear the change is visible
when i Want to cry the tears do not come
when i dont want to they fall like like rain
they are as incontrollable as the wind
there is no word for how i feel
the Closest thing to it is
I FEEL DIFFERENT