Disease Poem by Lisa AT

Poked and prodded, endless tests
I beg... Please no more, let me rest
Disease has ravished my body, giving me only one choice
I see the consultants mouth moving, but can no longer hear his voice
I feel like I'm under water, choking and struggling to breathe
How can this be my only option?
A total hysterectomy
I have to say goodbye to children I will never get to greet
And let go of something so precious before we'd got the chance to meet
I need to rethink all my goals in life that I wanted to pursue
And in doing so, I have to also close the door on motherhood
My heart is shattered the pain so deep
I wipe the tears and pray for sleep
My body has let me down in ways I can't express
The emptiness I feel is vast, sadly I will never be blessed
No tiny fingers, No button nose
No cute dimples, No tiny toes
The finality is hard to take
All I have is raw heartbreak