Don't Leave Me Again Poem by Andrus Cassian

Don't know where to start nor how to explain
She was in essence of Juliet, the sun
She was the wife of Atlas, the second holder of the world
my world...
It's too painful to think about
yet it doesn't stop the film from replaying in HD
Like a mockingbird, it repeats and repeats
those laughing times, sad and loving times
and there the screen shatters
as she exits stage left forever or so I thought
in desperate, agonizing tears
while I'm searching in several faces for the answer to why she's departing
but why bring up the past, it has been a year now
Yet a year later, is this a trick my love sick eyes have played upon me...
is that her in the distance
is that her, my once proud heroine, silhouetted sunset
is that her...
I have so many questions and so much to say
but my expression is that of utter surprise
like a ghost has re-surfaced among the living
walking closer to me
my expression proves blank as her scent sends chills to my spine
while her fingers finds the direct points
I couldn't help but hug her, help but hold her
and in my head I was silently cursing the earth
and in my head I was silently screaming
'WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO? ? ? ! ! '
I wanted to share with her everything
to explain to her how it felt to have her here once again
but I couldn't find voice and like a lonely puppy dog
I remained a follower, my legs betraying me
slowly my long time rival began to disintegrate me
beating in battle
for class was about to start
but I had to one last time
prove to myself she was real, here in my presence
I was desperately wanting to believe
it wasn't the last time she would materialize in front of me
but she whispered I love you, kissed my cheek
and in one swift embrace, she said goodbye and headed for the door
I wanted to scream 'DON'T LEAVE ME AGAIN! ! ! '
but I just stood stared stunned
and I couldn't bear to sit in a classroom
watching the movie in my mind
eclipsing the sun, stealing her smile in an ill-fated kiss
as she walked in slow motion out the door
Wait!
Where is my heart, where did I leave it last
I look down and I didn't realize the gaping hole in my chest
mangled, confused
like a monstrous hand, reached in and took it
but by the look of the wound
She took it as she departed, it slowly jumping after her
to say it loved her too
while my feet stay glued, too afraid to be pushed away
Did I go through a shredder, I feel like torn paper
Is it wrong that I wish she was by my side again...
Is it wrong I want to place one more righteous kiss
upon her soft lips
so I can erase the sting of my own ill-fated tears
trickling down my cheeks