Emotions - Why? Poem by Lisa Brashier

Why? What are emotions?
Why do I cry?
Does he really deserve the tears?
He has done nothing for me Or has he?
Why is it I feel this way. Makes no sense.
Like I am insane.
Maybe I am.

Does he really care? Or is it just pretend?
I feel so crazy inside.
I want to love him.
But I don't know - Why?
Not that he would ever love me, He could have any woman he wants.

I'm so confused. And don't if I will ever understand - Why?
Do I deserve happiness? I don't know.
All I've seen is misery.
And its all that I know. I don't understand - Why? I feel this way.

I don't know! Do I want it?
More than I can say.

Why are there so many tears? So much sadness inside.
Shall I go to sleep, and never awake.
Will everyone miss me or even know I'm gone?
That I am the one who loves? The one who cares?
The one who isn't so mixed up inside.

I don't want to breathe anymore.
Yet I don't want to die. I just want to know.
I only want to be better. Even if I never know why?