Equanimity. Poem by Eman Awad

Nothing for my mind to,
understand easily this days.
I wake up to fall into,
an endless and painful haze.
Screaming what's in me,
won't work among the voices.
Who will i turn to be? ?
i never had so much choices.
Which road to be taken?
i'm confused and i'm astray.
My heart'll be breaking,
alone on a very winding way.
But still i'll go ahead,
and my word say what i'm in.
While, still in my head,
they tell what is in within.
Words are the only left,
no friends and no love inside.
And they say i have a gift,
i know it's all in my mind.

Why do i feel so alone?
Why am i hurt to die?
Why can't i have a home?
Why do i cry? ?
I feel headaches and i,
can't see straight at all.
They let go of me and nothing to defy,
dead every day i fall.
And i'll remain alone till eternity,
and that it self is comfert and equanimity..