Everything Poem by Sinjin Tyger

This may come as no surprise
But everything is my demise
Life is our terminal illness
Like a dark lady in a tight black dress
The times that were and are and come
Don't tell us where we're coming from
Or even where we're going to...
(It's why and how and what we do)

Too many times I tried to steal
a female's heart away!
Then 80,000 tears I cried
and wished to end my days.
But everytime when I awoke
bleeding, on the floor
I knew that life would just go on
and hurt me evermore...

And dare I ever to peek out
from underneath my abject doubt
and steel myself with song and honey
and power it all with scarce money
I know that I may stand my ground
and once again I shall be found
standing - circled by backs and glares
they are unfeeling, oft unawares
that I am inside all I see
it's all of you I have to be.

For over the silent open seas
my moon does arise to me
And higher, higher as she climbs
The fun returns to all my times
And silliness and laughter fly
from in my heart to fill the sky
with rainbow colors of many hue
there's nothing I more want to do!

And yes, in these times I may even be good enough for you, my dear.
And it is you I love............and fear.
For no sooner do I think I'm blessed
When God himself gives me the test
By smiting all of my beliefs
And sending me back, back to my griefs
Down into my private hell
Where nightmares rule and voices tell
of everything that I've done wrong -
despite the fact I tried so long
to be the very best I can!

Is this the fate of mortal man?