Evolution Of The Soul Poem by Joy Malumphy

I chose to bounce into this earthly life
filled with hope, promise and a bit of surprise.
Challenged by a world of stubborn wills
raising me as your child, became quite a bill.
My temperaments changed and varied
on your shoulders I was carried
Independence became my defiance
in search of building my own self-reliance
Unless I have explained what I did
realize it was my role as your kid
I had to re-examine my options, if they flopped
I must confess, I was only doing my job.

Then, I became this impatient, know-it-all teenager
Giving more credit and respect to an absolute stranger
Passionately feeling that I always knew best,
Carelessly, how could I have known about all the rest?
Tears, tests, trials and relentless temptations
I was focused selfishly on my own personal limitations.
I might have embarassed you more than you shared,
while I made your life a living nightmare.
If there were moments when I made your heart stop
Please don't forget, I was only doing my job.

Life then became overly complicated and serious
Being an adult, meant life's drill was just tedious
Burdened with responsibilities and relentless guilt
my world grew so lopsided, the sign I wore said, 'Tilt! '
I now work for the man every night and day
expecting others to listen and honor what I say
I struggle to make those loose ends meet
I hope to catch a breath so I may avoid defeat
I get angry, intolerant at the dropp of a hat
Admitting my weakness is an unattractive fact
As I transform my past, the hurt fades away and drops.
I remind myself, I was only doing my job.

Now, my children are all grown and gone
Discovering their own path where the road is long
Did I give them a role model that was worthwhile?
Teaching them when trouble show up, grin and smile.
Life comes fast and the memory begins to wane
I felt the incredible whirlwind force leaving me dazed.
There were exciting moments, I still to this day cherish,
Nothing like when I drove a boat that almost perished.
I know there where times that were well beneath being tops
I keep telling myself, I was only doing my job.

I stand at the crossroads of my life,
this familiar intersection I've seen once or twice.
I see with clarity the reasons for the choices I made
Sometimes these choices were easy, while others grave.
But, they were still my choices either way
Would I choose limitation over freedom with each new day?
In doing so, I confronted my demons face to face
Evolving this humble spirit of mine, radiating with grace.
I understand now why I did not permit myself to stop
Deep down I knew, my mission was to complete this job!

I honor those lessons teaching me to conquer and champion my plight,
While I embrace my journey to become ONE and take flight.

by Joypoet

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