Oh, I have found myself being left moreover than the latter goer
Oh, that I have been put in this heart- devouring position Oh how could I show her
That it is you I wish not to leave, yet to depart haveth I no other choice? I cannot rejoice nor can I stay my hands wish to remain yet my mouth says I would decay
If I were to stay Oh if I were to stay
For a year and a few months my mind has known you and whence I had the second taken my heart received you But, nonetheless
My heart regained my lost remnant and now I threw away that stress But now that I will lose you I am forever depressed
On this subject I do not know what to relay to you Oh dear
For it is everything you have given me and what I lose tomorrow that I fear
For losing you what other have I there is nay no other contraption to form or quick event to Try to pry
So on this day I cry for whatever would a severed man do yet un-severed between two lovers? So I die
Oh if were to stay, if I were to stay
We would laugh and play with our minds and game about our futuristic ideals and speak of what and which our hearts crave
But nay unforgivably and breath lost forsaken there is nothing before this clash nay nothing to end this rave
Pray have I given up for I heard no answers being relayed to my heart not even a simmer of love none to thwart
Only if, Oh just if I could have kissed you underneath the Buddha tree where the stars would stare and envy our romance.
Or if the arms you out around my gages heart could bare to keep it's former stance.
For tonight I write my heart out and instead of choosing to shout my heart and I choose to bout
A bout of words of cries and quarrels of myself
Of all my memories with her all the thoughts that I felt
Oh if only I were to stay if only I could.
But as is said of old there is no space for where no space be laid
And if there were space fate would have none else to offer that be paid
So on this night all that I can say is that it has given my heart withered and decayed.
I remember when we were upon the blood stained shore and you were beneath my legs nothing But our laughter could be heard underneath the ocean bay..
Oh if only if only Oh those words only that I may stay
... But how we both know you and I a void must befill the apple when a worm is deep inside..
For like a blackhole the more it spreads the larger it becomes the more havack it sows and so where does our blackhole abide?
How when with two could this love ever subside
between and betwixt not just you and yet I But three so I
should pick one to dispise.
But if I were to choose both without breaking human made morality
or peace at ease or Buddhist like spirituality
dost though not see my hearts voided cold reality?
Oh if I could stay if I were to stay oh only if my heart could stay.................
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem