Fading Poem by Linny Bear

It's been a while since we've split
It's painful
Not because your gone
But because your absence
has caused a gap in my memory of you

I find myself forgetting your beautiful eyes
Those surreal hazel eyes that would stare
At all my features and flaws
Those sadness filled eyes
That would only light up in my presence

I've forgotten your amazing scent
The smell I'd soak up whenever you held me
Your comforting smell
Fused into that one jacket,
my favourite one

The soothing sound of your voice no longer echoes in my soul
It's become silent once again
Your ecstatic laugh
Oh how your laugh would instantly
Fill me with overwhelming joy
Now I feel so hollow and empty

Your touch
I can't even pretend to remember the fire
It would ignite in me
every single time
you laid your hands on my yearning body
I can't remember your lips
Their sensual press against mine

You've become a stranger
I know this means I'm healing
And finally finding that light
I so desperately wanted
But I don't want it
If the cost is letting what we had
Fade out of existence

All those moments of warmth, happiness and hurt
Simply becoming a distant memory I can't accept it
I don't want to not remember you
Not remember love?

It makes my heart ache
Thinking of how Amethyst
will now just be a colour.