Letting Go Poem by Linny Bear

Why is it everytime I look into your eyes
My chest aches
And I'm overwhelmed with hate
The anxiousness inside me spreads
Like a disease
It's not butterflies no
It's not love
It's a horrid feeling
Like my heart is constantly being ripped out of my chest
I feel like disintegrating
I want to scratch my neck and pull my hair out
I find myself more upset than happy with you nowadays
But I can't say your love has become intoxicated for me..no
I can't lose you again
My dear amethyst
This time you've entered my life with pain
I can't breathe without your air
But when I'm around you I feel suffocated
I feel trapped in this hold you have me in
I have the keys to the chains
You've bound me in
But why won't I use them
I can't let go
No
I won't let go.