Faith & Action? Poem by john raymond

I suffer three days out of the week.
For my blood needs to be made clean
Jesus's blood clean my sins and heals
Yet I get a painful pricked each day
Jesus says: ask in my name it shall be given
Yet I bleed with black & blue marks on my thy
Jesus said I have come so you can have life more abundantly
Yet in time I feel my body weaker and see the same in others
Jesus said there is no unclean food & eat what is before you
Yet I do not eat food rich in Phosphorus, Potassium or Calcium
Jesus says He would of given you living water
Yet I try not to drink to much because water can kill me
Jesus did not give us a spirit of Fear!
Yet I fear bleeding blood clots graph wearing out & infection
Jesus said your Faith has made you whole!
I try in faith and actin not to bleed and quit dialysis?
Is dying to flesh being dead to fear or dead to my desire?
In faith and confidence do I stay or do I go pray for me?
Please Lord give peace for your choice