Fallen Poem by Amanda Larsen

As I watch your fingers dance
I know I won't get tired
My favorite
Your eyes will always matter
Your voice will always calm
I don't forget a footstep
I don't forsake a fall
My favorite
I was never small

You like my voice
I like your smile
We sound the same
And our smiles mirror

I prayed for fame
You prayed for life
We prayed in vain
The unknown corpses
Unheard dead
But we can dance between hell and heaven
We're together
In my head

Share my headlines
Share my mind
Every secret
Every line
Unnecessary sense I didn't make
Cause who would read me

You promised yesterday again
The pink and blue
The black
The friend
I thought of nightmare and of end
I thought I gave you bones to bend

I think too much
That's what you said
So I drowned thoughts
In liquid sane
And bled my pain
And burned my blame
Cause I've been tortured
I've been saved

I found relief in your own name
And every lamb is turning brave
As wolves get bored of running

I hated summer
But the winter froze my breath
I hated fire but the ice was always melting
I needed pleasure
But he ruined me with theft
And then he mocked me
When I realized I felt him

My innocence was burned
And only friends will hate me
I wanted smoke
But they were telling me to leave
I tried the keys
The locks were broken
And the only game they know is to deceive

I loved my darling
Darlings come and go
But you are more than romance
You are a part of every teardropp that I shed
You are the broken mirror shard
You are the air inside my heart
You are the strings under my fingers
And the wounds upon my arm
You are the self-respect that lingers
And the self-hate that alarms
You are the sweetness in my bitter
And the passion in my kiss
You are the melody I know I can't resist