Falling Poem by jacob k

my toes are on this ledge
im alone
and have always been
my joints are poised and tensed
i'm ready
the world below wont remember me
i don't think anybody will
this skyscraper is a desolate stage
it's so silent up here
silent enough i can almost hear th bc
is celestial theatre applaud this death
"good riddance" they all exclaim
but it feels serene
the only serenity this life will offer
maybe this is what heaven would feel like
in a few minutes i would know
i graze this railing
this tactile connection as cold as all others
even the inanimate
shove me away
but it grounds me
gives me something to connect to this world
funny how in this moment metal gives me more warmth than flesh
and i knew from the start i was only ever the side character
and side characters die all the time
my role was already casted in stone
my heart hums a melancholic dirge in response
because nobody else will mourn
even my shadow is unconvinced i'm worthy
and this gravitational pull is dragging me down
as i utter my last soliloquy of surrender
these seconds are agonising
comparatively better than the years below
im alone in the night

I don't need a parachute
because i don't want to stop it anymore

so now i stand on this edge
and i let the world do what it always wanted to do
see.
me.


fall