Falling Apart Is Easier Than It Seems Poem by Andy Dettmer

Wrote this 1 day after my girlfriend of 9 months left me

The numbing has begun
feels like my heart has just been flung
you brought me up with words of love
just to watch pain fall from above
Ive beat myself up many times
and all i get are frickin rythmes
all the words now feel as shed
as i lie here alone here in my bed
love was once here beating well
but now it has just tripped and fell
I always thought we were meant to be
but then u chose to go and flee
I dont know what to do rite now
when getting over, my heart wont allow
All i wanna do is hide
you make me wanna go and die
I now look at you with such disdain
how could u cause me so much pain
I tried to put in al my best
but what you did put that to rest
my heart has gone and caved inside
every time u ever lied
I never got that final dance
you went and killed me with ur prance
you once called me your superman
but crushed me down with one back hand
why do i always deserve all this pain
when i thought in u, my greatest gain
our love once flew so way to high
now all i wanna do is die
id convinced myself we were perfectly fit
but got beat down with ur last hit
now i ask u to take a bow
as my hearts destruction has begun rite now