Fatherless Poem by H.M. Gautsch

Raised by a single mother,
And a bachelor who transitioned,
To my stepfather.

But that was never enough for me.
For my mind to became distortion,
By my curiosity.

After the discovery,
Of the unknown second candidate.
Questions arise in my thoughts.

All for the blank mystery
Of my birth certificate.
Who? Where? What? When? Why?

If he knew of my life,
Would he be proud of me,
Attempt to make up for lost time?

Or would he be in disgust
At the roads I chose to take,
And disown me anyway?

As I continue to grow,
Expose myself to the World
My mind continues to wander.

I sit back and try to understand,
How can one man or woman,
Just walk away from an innocent child.

The anger and resentment diminishes,
But I haven't forgotten,
About my unanswered prayers.

Growing up fatherless,
Brings many effects to one's home.
Don't allow your child to grow up alone.

I feel lost not knowing,
The second half of my genetics.
Who? Where? What? When? Why?

The same questions haunt my dreams,
Brings me the life I only fantasize.
But that's not enough for me to be satisfied.

2014©H.M.Gautsch