Fearless Poem by Minnie Gehrig

altogether threatened,
by the blankness of the page,
a deer caught in the headlights of its own making,
stilled by the fear
bleed into the pages,
while everyone around me goes on believing
i am fearless,

last night i cried
into my pillow,
like a child who cannot sleep,
wracked in the guilt
transgressions sooner felt than seen,
reality washing over me
in waves of tears,

believe then it is true,
that I am altogether a tangled up mess
of a girl,
i should wear blue today,
fade into the sky
become the big empty,

it was supposed to be rain,
but instead it is snow,
already it sticks and weaves
a blanket of white,
covering all the ugly cracks disfigurements
of pavements and straight and blinding lines
we always stay inside of.