Flashing My Dignity Poem by aliyah aliyah

I hate my self after every time it happens
What hurts me most that I have could stop it back then
But I didn’t and am paying back for that
It cuts me every time I remember and it brings so much pain
Knowing that I was stupid that I couldn’t even end it
Now that I can’t stop thinking about it
I figure out it wasn’t all my mistake
My memories goes back, I wasn’t the only person to blame
I was just a kid back then
Now as I grow up I have to live with shame
I flashed my dignity in the toilet
And I have to learn how to live with out it
Smiling & pretending like nothing have happened wont fix a thing
Friends have told me to forget about it
It doesn’t worth’s all this pain
But they don’t know what have happened
So please stop giving advices that I don’t need