For Every Time... Poem by Rachel Flynn

For every time I’ve shouted or cried,
For every time I’ve told you goodbye,
Every moment I told you I didn’t care,
The truth is, I really did need you there.

For every lie I’ve ever told
For every argument I chose to unfold
For every time I’ve messed with your head
For every time I’ve wanted you dead.

For every truth I couldn’t bare
For when I accused you of having an affair
For ruining your nights out with the guys
For moaning about your increasing size.

For my constant disapproval of your friends
And for refusing to do the good thing and make amends
For every time I would check your phone
And for flipping out at the numbers which were listed “unknown”.

For my emotional blackmail
And for making you so unable
For every time I’m so unreasonable
And for being so emotionally unstable.

I don’t expect forgiveness for all that I’ve done
And my cruel words cannot be undone
I let my insecurities take control
But I really do love you with my whole body and soul.

I hate myself for doing this to those whom I love
And its something you're so undeserving of
I understand if you want us to go our separate ways
But to have stood by me this long, you really do amaze!

I needed a wake up call
And this I have had
I don’t understand why you didn’t get mad
You stood by me, calm and collected
And you chose to stay quiet instead.

Words cannot describe my awe
When I’d want confrontation, you’d withdraw
You showed me a compassion, that I’d never experienced
You had an overwhelming, calming influence.

I love you more
Than I’ll ever show
But trust me when I say, I never want to let you go.



This is dedicated to my parter, Jack Gillies. He is my rock and without him, I crumble.