For What It's Worth Poem by Kitty Marie Lucas

once,
i was a starving stray,
with no one to look out for me.
so when you noticed me,
and offered to ammend that,
believing in your goodness,
i accepted.

time has passed though.
i'm no kitten anymore.
you have failed me enough times
that out of necessity,
i have learned to reassure myself.

i am
self-reliant now;
when the world ends,
i won't come to your door.

and i have waited far too long
for you to do something for me.
i keep giving and giving and giving,
with absolutely no evidence
that you will ever follow through.

no more.

i woke up today,
and i knew better than you is out there.
there wasn't any 'in love' saved for you to take.
those ties are gone.

the only thing you ever did
was feed me bits to keep me near.
and you used me for company,
for confirmation,
for completion.

so from now on,
i will enjoy your company,
or you won't be enjoying any of mine.
i am not a toy to be entertained by
whenever it suits you.

don't try to convince me to have faith in you.
the best proof of anything is the things you don't do.
all those reassuring words,
'yes, i will, i promise, '
are familiar in and out;
they've lost their value,
so don't bother trying,
i seek no comfort in you now.

i have lost my faith in others,
and i have fallen for someone new.
for what it's worth,
i'd rather be in love with myself.
it's not worth it to cater to someone like you.