Forget To Not Remember Poem by Maria Sudibyo

I forget not to remember
I forget everything is already over
It's slipping in my mind state
Like broken lock gate
Discreetly refuse
To be completely closed

I forget not to remember
I forget you're not mine either
I still search you behind the door
But no love in your eyes anymore
I keep moving to hide my fear
To pretend that I don't linger

I forget not to remember
I forget I promise to be stronger
Instead keep wailing about you
Paint my heart all black and blue
In every memories we had once
I need something new to hold on