Girl Inside Poem by Amanda K. Perkins

How come when it comes to boys I see no flaws
But when I look in the mirror flaws is all I see
I watch my life go by thourgh my reflection
I cant believe whats infront of me...my own complection
The past doesnt control me my future beholds me
I see this girl in my shadow quiet and lonely
Slowly creeping out.......my insides sometimes show
Emotions inside seemingly grow
The mirror breaks shattering to the ground
My reflection now broken...inside I frown
Tears flow washing away the glass
As I get up without knowing my soul had just passed
My passion turned to hate, Love now turned to fate
Patience seems to disappear.....I can no longer wait
I just cant break this girl inside of me
She wont come out she's selfish you see
I desperately need to be happy
I try so hard but she is controlling me
Expressing myself through music and writing
As I keep this girl inside me struggling but fighting....
....To not show her infront of others
Sometimes hurt I cant even tell my mother
But how can I let her go without letting other people know?
How can she break free without letting others see?
When will I get over the fact that she lives inside me?
Endlessly questioning these feelings I feel
Dreams turned to nightmares now seem so real
Im living a dream as this girl lives the nightmare
She runs inside me afriad and scared
She finds an opening....finds her way out
My soul now feels free I scream and shout
My heart once torn now loving and free
For once in my life I can finally be me