Giving Up Poem by kirsty bain

why be alive when you know your
not worth the life
why be alive
when there is no heaven nor hell
why smile
when you've forgotten the last time
that you were actually happy
no hell to remind you that your forever dying.

here we are going on
our

boring
cold lifeless lives
making the same damn mistakes
creating pain within myself
with every step i take
i feel numb
finding it hard to breath
my breath starts to
escape me
im screaming
hoping that the voices will let me be

crying
getting tired of trying
getting tired of acting like
i'm fine all the time
this is making me
loose my mind
i'm out of time

but soon
the pain starts to take over
and i finally start to feel
i start to think of snow
snow as in freezing
snow as in bleeding
in the inside and out
no one knows
what i'm about
no one knows
why i'm about to cry
why i want to die

maybe it would be better for me
its like stop living
to simpliy
die

in the end
in reality it would
be me
giving up the world
giving
up my life
giving up the chance
on 'everything turning out right'
giving up the ones who loved me most
giving up my friends
giving up the world that i used to pretend to be so happy in
giving up the choice
that i
could choose
giving up the memories i had to loose
but most of all
giving up
everything
that resembles you...