Goodbye Poem by jenni rose Carter

I can't keep pretending,
There will be a happy ending
To this story, when you don't even see
Just how much you hurt me
I used to think that if I started to pray
That maybe GOD would answer my prayers and take this pain away
Maybe he'd see how little you care and fix the problem but I guess
No matter what you aren't going to change; how could I expect any less
I begged you to take me back several times and still
You never did and I'm beginning to think you never will
I love you and you don't seem to understand just how much
It's like to you all I have for you is a silly little crush
And if you can hurt me enough maybe I'd leave you alone
I guess I should just be going its best I'm all by myself on my own
You tell me you love me but I don't believe you anymore
Not as I used to believe those words before
You say I'm the only girl you want to marry and love forever
But I know better than believe those sweet words its best were not together
I can't deal with the pain you inflict onto my heart
How you tear open my wounds and rip me apart
How you find a way to bring me down and fall under your spell
Being with you was like being in hell
You were the devil tormenting me, beckoning me to listen
And even as the tears that begin to fall start to glisten
You still made me feel as if you were only doing this out of love
I was a flightless broken winged dove
And you were the one who broke my wings on my back
I can't afford to have my self esteem and heart under attack
You were the one who made me feel dead on the inside
Like part of the person I am had died
I was nothing more than a toy to play with and this was your game
You had the control of the dice, where I go and I was to blame
I was a lost soul uncaring, rebellious a adult age wise
But underneath that under my disguise
Was a child's innocent heart and soul
Who let you love me; I just wanted to feel whole
So you took mu innocence and that child was no longer there
And I gave you my heart and thought you really did care
I was naive with my body and my time
Thinking that you will always be mine
What I didn't see, didn't know
Just how much of my life I'd come to let go
Just to let you stay around
We had little to no common ground
And yet I was willing to throw my whole life away to be with you a little while
But the longer we were together the harder it became to smile
It took me so long
To see just how wrong
I was to do this
We had no real happiness
We had nothing but pain to give
Each other and our whole life's to live
So I must tell you goodbye for I can't love you
Without getting hurt something I don't want to do