Goodbye Mom Poem by Emzee d'Va

Dear mum,
This is your son,
I am writing this to you,
To tell you I’m done.

Hold back those tears,
Please don’t cry
Don’t make this any harder,
For me tonight.

You will see,
This is the only way,
For I am too much of a burden,
To you everyday.

I know by now,
You’ve met my soul mate,
Her name is Snow White,
This was just fate.

Slowly slowly,
She led me away,
From your warm nest,
Each and everyday.

All the lies and deceit,
I had to tell,
I can’t stop now,
I am completely under her spell.

When you found out,
And you didn’t believe my lies,
Again I’m so sorry,
For giving you those black eyes.

Every night you stayed up,
Dreading that knock on the door,
Is the number of reasons,
I can no longer ignore.

There is no way out,
Of this darkness and despair,
A long time ago,
God abandoned your prayers.

So you see,
There is only one way,
To kill myself now,
And end the pain today.

For this brief moment,
My thoughts are clear,
These ten more doses,
Means relief for you is near.

Don’t blame yourself mum,
You raised me right,
I messed everything up,
But I'll fix this tonight.

You may not see it now
But over time your pain will ease
I love you, goodbye
Yours sincerely, now at peace...