Goodbye To My Lost Hope Poem by Aranoys AreligSelegn

How does a moment of happiness turn into so much pain?
I trusted you with my life!
I trusted that no matter how wrong things were
you'd still think of me not as of a mistake
but at least as of a forbidden dream that could never be

Now I'm nothing!
Now I'm not
'...Now... I...am...not...'
can you hear these words?
can you hear what they really mean?
How dare you give me my life back and then take away?
How dare you become my partner in our sin
and then blame me for it all on my own for it?

I fell for your innocence
I fell for your loving touch!
I can stand it anymore!
Did I never mean anything to you?
Where did all your words go?
If I now was in your place I would have defended you
no matter what the cost was and whomever was with me
I would have at least tried to understand and come up with some explanation for you,
I would have tried to protect you as the last thing I could have done for you!

Why? Why does everything turn this way
every time I look for a brief light for a second in my life?
You were my dream
you were my hope
you were the one who saved me
and the same one that turn around and
put a knife inside my heart and my soul!

We could have stopped in time
and let time pass by
and let go of our dream
before it could hurt anyone around
but even if it had
I would have never let you down

I know of our differences now
I know that you never understood who I was
and the strenght I have to get me where I am

I have died many times over
and I have once more...
I am too good for you and for anyone else that thinks knows me
but i also know that no else will accept you and care for you the way I did...
no else will take you, accept you just as you are and stop time and given you all you ever wanted for a couple hours until you had to go back to your own life...
no else will ever be concerned and ask you why you didnt go back to her when you had your chance! ! !

You know very well I never wanted to break your life apart! ! !
In our last day I was going to tell you right then and there we would never see each other again...I just didnt have the strenght to tell you right in your face we'd never see each other again,
instead I choose to wait for the next day...Destiny had other plans for us and I guess i gathered the strenght only hours too late

I never wanted to be something I was not
I just wanted to let you know you had saved my life then
but now with your indiference you have taken it away
and destroyed it once and for all
and it's even more painful than when it happened before again and again

I thought more of you
I thought more of her
I dont ask you both to forgive me
cause you've never seen what i've lived thru
but at least I expected you,
the one that truly knew me to at least try to understand...
but you did not
and now you leave me
burning slowly in my own ashes
and you wont even leave me a sweet memory of peace and love...
you leave me all alone dying in slowly agony
again all alone with my ghosts

Now you leave me all alone
I never asked for your love, for you care, nor for your smile
I just asked for nothing more than a 'Hi'
not everyday just once in a while