Had I Not, If I Loved U More Poem by kendyll brown

my life is long
lived past
farther than i would
have thought

with the choices
iv made
and the mistakes
had i or no taken part in

and all the faces
they said they
loved me,
i loath u all

for hurting me
and causing me
to inflict pain
on my self, with the

torture, i put
myself through
because of
all of you

and all those
events have
have caused me to think
' i would have died by now'

drifting into
clouds 9 and 11
or nothing at all
i would have simply dissappeared

had i not
hated you
i would have died
if i loved u all more