Haunting Memories Poem by Teresa Sykes

I lay awake straining to hear even the slightest noise.
What happened to the happiness, what happened to the joys
When I feel pain and fear, I think of you
How could you do this, would you like this to happen to you
It hasn’t happened in over a year, yet it feels like yesterday
What did I do to deserve this and how do I make these feelings go away
I tried to seek help, but they all just turned their backs on me
But one day they’ll know and all will see
I’m tired of all these secrets and all the things I regret
Why can’t I move on, why can’t I forget
But yet it is within me, deep inside
My heart screams to just let it all out on the outside
Then everyone will know the secret, the regrets, and the pains you have caused me
But then I will finally be able to be free
Free from you and the memories that haunt me
But for now I must be silent, right
Or maybe I should hold my head up and fight
Only time will tell for now
Right now I must survive some way, some how
But I have yet many years to come
And by each passing year, hopefully I will think of you only some