Heaven's Not A Place On Earth Poem by Pranesh Varan

Why does it hurt so much?
even after you decide to let go
of all the agonizing memories?
why do i feel like i'm drowning
when everything around me
seems to be rising with the sun?
why do i still look for pain
when everyone tells me it'll be alright?

like everything else, maybe this
is just another phase one has to go through
i remember vaguely
the days i was broken and fallen
amidst laughters that surround me
it hurt so bad, i now know
that i can't just sit here
and wait for a change

i've come to believe there really isnt
a place called heaven
here on earth or anywhere else
it is a journey my heart has to take
for the will to live comes only from within
and all i can do is hope to find my way...