Held Close But Lost Fast: ( Poem by Shantel Novley

Thought I had something good but it didnt last.
And now im in the dark and cant breath.
I had you close and u had me to but its all gone.
5 second flat and u left.
Without me and my heart.

Watched you walk away, im trying not to cry
U shut the door and left my heart burning for u on the door step.
Just waiting for u to come back to me but wishing isnt enough.
Cant believe this is true.
U held me while I cryd and didnt feel right.

Ur arms are warm and inviting.
Ur heart is full of pain but continues to grow.
Ur words put me to rest and make me feel alive
Ur the world to me in so many ways but u just cant see
Ur all I want and all I need to become alive again.

I hold the tears inside and try to block out the pain
but it makes it way to the surface and I cant stop it,
u made me the happy person I am just to leave and I fell again
but this isnt ur fault as I fell to hard in love for something I new couldnt last
as you have said once before but I didnt wanna believe.

I love you lots but cant put it forward cuz of everything that has tried to tear us apart
but I will continue to fight for what I want.
And most likely cry a little more.
But its okay as long as I can have you in my heart
or at least to a degree.