Help Me Stay Strong… Poem by WENDY KAY TADDAY

MY LIFE IS SLOWLY FALLING APART, AND I KNOW ONE DAY IT WILL ALL COME CRASHING DOWN, AND WHEN THAT DAY COMES JUST ALWAYS REMEMBER I HOLD YOU AND THE KIDS DEEP IN MY HEART.
DROWNING IN MY TEARS WHEN LOOKING BACK ON MY LIFE WHAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH IN THE PAST 11 YEARS.
I WILL ALWAYS TRY TO STAY STRONG EVEN THOUGH I FEEL SO WEAK
SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO GIVE IT ALL UP BUT I WILL NOT ACCEPT THAT DEFEAT
THE PAIN AND AGONY ARE HERE EVERYDAY, AND IT NEVER SEEMS TO GO AWAY
NOW SOMETHING JUST DON'T SEEM QUITE RIGHT
WHY DO I HAVE TO WEAR THIS MASK AND BREATHE ALL THIS OXYGEN JUST TO SLEEP AT NIGHT.
I AM SO AFRAID OF DYING, YET I KNOW EVERYONE HAS TO. I'M JUST NOT READY YET I STILL HAVE A LOT OF STUFF LEFT WITH MY KIDS TO DO.
MY SEIZURES ARE GETTING PRETTY BAD, MY BODY STARTS TREMBLING AND STARTS TO SHAKE
I GET SO SCARED, I CANT BREATHE MY THROAT IS CLOSING OFF I FALL TO THE FLOOR USUALLY HIT MY HEAD OR FACE AND WHEN I COME TO MY BODY IS FULL OF ACHES.
I ALWAYS START CRYING BECAUSE IT REALLY FEELS LIKE I AM DYING
I'VE BEEN CLOSE A COUPLE OF TIMES TO WALKING THROUGH THOSE PEARLY GATES
BUT GOD IS THERE TELLING ME "HEY YOU HAVE TO WAIT "! ! YOU HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTERS THAT NEED A MOM TO SHARE THE MEMORIES OF THEIR HIGH SCHOOL PROM, GRADUATION, AND THEIR SPECIAL DAY THEY SAY "I DO " AND THE DAY THEY BECOME MOMMIES TO
I WANT THOSE TIMES, I WANT THOSE MEMORIES, I WANT TO SEE THEM SHINE I WANT TO BE ABLE TO SAY "SEE THOSE LITTLE TIKES RIGHT THERE, THOSE GRANDBABIES ARE MINE"
I KEEP PRAYING FOR BETTER DAYS, IT JUST DON'T SEEM LIKE PRAYING HELPS BECAUSE NO PRAYER HAS BEEN ANSWERED MY WAY
MY HUSBAND AND DOCTORS ARE THE ONLY ONES THAT REALLY KNOW AND HAVE TO SEE WHAT GOES ON WITH ME AND THAT'S HOW IWANT IT TOBE
MY THAUGHTS ON LIFE ALWAYS TRY TO STAY STRONG LOVE, LAUGH, AND PLAY BECAUSE THERES NO GUARENTEE YOU WILL GET ANOTHER DAY……..