Here I Sit (Part 2) Poem by Rikki Giovani

Here I sit trying to forget the pain.
I now know that the only way to relinquish my shadow self,
Is to wash my hands of my past.
I need to forgive myself for my indescresions.
My insecurities are hold me back from letting it all go.
I no longer reach for the empty hand to lift me up.
I now feel like I am the only one that can pull myself out of oblivion,
And rise out of the ashes once more.
I watch people come to me with their arms wide open telling me,
They have never left me and have always been here to help me.
They say I never pushed them away but, that they were giving me some space.
I know in my heart that if I give myself a chance,
I can rise from the ashes like a phoenix.
All I have to do is just let go.
So, Here I sit trying to forget the pain.

’04, September,2009’