Hey, Forgive Me? (Friend) Poem by Ian (Dying for her)

I'm realizing now,
that I've truely messed up.
I lost my best friend,
and my dearest love.
I don't really understand,
what it is.
I only know,
it's you that I miss.
I miss the fun we'd have,
just out on the streets,
And being in the mall, or
goin out to eat.
How we'd wear our matching shades,
and fool around at the park.
Or how you'd stress about being out after dark!
I miss how you laugh at scarey movies(?)
when we went to the show...
...
I love you more as my friend...
is what I'm starting to know.

So I just want to say that I'm sorry,
for pushing you away.

And that I miss you in my life,
which is getting harder every day.