Hollow Heart Of Stone Poem by kaydra townsend

(when i wrote this {along time ago} i don't remember it it was meant as poem or a song)

He says he loves me, so why am I here
He wants to be with me, that much is clear
But I've been hurt so many times
Broken and tortured behind enemy lines
In that time I have become accustomed to being alone
And I have casted myself a hollow heart of stone
This heart of mine, it knows pain
No emotion inside does remain
I am cold and unfeeling, unthinkably so
Just pretend you don't see me, and forget what you know
Everything I love, it is all long gone
So I have casted myself a hollow heart of stone
I will not soften it, no matter the cost
For I still remember what it is to be lost
The pain lived inside me, for much to long
I cannot even remember what went wrong
Don't worry, I don't mind living alone
For I casted myself a hollow heart of stone
His touch felt so warm, good I'd say
I could thaw my heart and see the light of day
But no, what am I thinking, it foolishness, no?
How could I trust him and let my heart go?
I like knowing that everything is gone
It's why I casted myself this hollow heart of stone
Confusion consumes me, attacking my mind
I've eluded emotions of every kind
It's too late, I can't turn back, not now, not today
There's nothing that will ever make me okay
I've gone through my life completely alone
And I've learned to love my hollow heart of stone
There's nothing to be done, I change for no one
Never will my caged heat see the light of the sun
You see, I'm unmoving, unbelievably cold
Stick around long enough and you'll see what you're told
I'm unloved and uncaring, my love is all gone
Because I'm hiding myself behind this hollow heart of stone