Watching all my loved ones leave me
Choosing strangers that deceive me
Giving them my trust and benefit of doubt
Naïve to what the game they play is really all about
Sucked into a lifestyle that wasn't made for me
Driven by excitement and rewards my eyes can see
Lost faith in what the future holds as it does not satisfy
Ambitions of success aren't enough to get me by
Frustrated and impatient, I want my rewards now
So I crawl into an alley and to the scums I bow
Each paycheck is flushed in a matter of seconds
I take Satan's warm hand when the lonely night beckons
Most days Im empty-handed and am often sleep deprived
Despite my lack of care, I have miraculously survived
The thrill of the chase keeps the harsh thoughts away
Maybe not for tomorrow but just for today
So I run to ignore stillness's sharp pain
Busy and moving, I go blindly insane
Never can I stop to breath and meet infamous peace
And only will I sleep when my racing heart shall cease
I'm simply a coward in a rambler's disguise
I pack up my bags when I meet heartache's eyes
Look for me in the shadows as I struggle to survive
Each day I risk my life, yet here I am alive.
What happened to the plans I made?
I've asked for courage when I've prayed
Been blessed with chances undeserved
From danger I have always swerved
Fearful of the future, I resort back to my past
& for months I have been saying "This time will be the last.."
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem