'I Am, I Am, Do I Really Am? ' Poem by Novice Writer

Endless night, moon shining so bright
My head is tight, thinking about yesterday
I just stand, tried to depend

But I'm not ready
I get scared once again
My mouth zip, my mind went blank

I tried my best, or did I?
I hate myself, I hate my mind.
I'm the problem, but am I?

I know I am, I know I'm not
Do I really know what...
What I want?

I'm just tired, I miss the sky
i miss the smell
Of the wind under the moonlight sky.

I love the breeze.
It smell like peace
I like the stars, not like I am?

I hide in the dark, they shine so bright
They tried their best, but did I?
I'm still, like a thing
A thing that don't do anything

I just want, to be like them,
But I hate, that I can't be myself
Is there's no other way

But to breathe, and take a step
Can I just be myself, Can't I just be that star

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