I Am Me Poem by Kaitlin Parker

My wings were once a bright white
But now there a dark deep black
I can't go back to undo the wrong
I cant't go back not at all.
Every day no matter what theres something that pulls me down
My smile turns to a frown.
And when I try to open my wings
They only get cut
My heart broken and battered by boys
An absent dead father
A strict mother
Back stabbing 'friends'
Outsider I am
Words cut deep inside
No one realize how it feels
After years of this
I found something that helped
I found a sharp knife
Pushed it on my skin and cut back
It was once the greatest thing I felt.
But years pasted the great feeling led to miserable feelings.
I'm hurting my body. Making it ugly.
You dont see people on TV looking like this.
I dropped it at once. I still crave it
Like an exsmoker.
My days are now filled with
Fake people
Endless piles of homework
My annoying family
My harrassing mind
Teachers
and a pool.
I gave up trying to look stunning everyday.
If you want me accept me like who I am
The water is where I feel peace
Where my mind can be taken far away from everything else.
My body at ease, my breathing finally easily.
Am I'm sorry for the ones I have hurt
I'm sorry for those who have hurt me
I hope one day you wake up to realize that 'She really did love me'
My heart is torn, scared and cut, but only pure love seeps
For him I care, I promise, I swear, But even he cannot keep me strong keep me bounded away from the wrong. He can make my smile dropp to a frown, and let tears wash away my face.
I want to have a body like models, great hair, prefect skin,
Everybody likes me and will be my friend.
But thats not me...Im an outsider...a teenager whose trying to find her way.
I'm sorry. But somehow I will never stop believing that Me, and YOU are BEAUTIFUL no matter what they say.
My scares tell a story. But not the same true story as my heart.
So please free your ears and listen
Call me whatever you want I will show no pain though its felt
I'm me