I Am Not The Same Without You Poem by Shelby Jasmin Estrada

I used to see you as someone I loved

I used to think you were the stars in the sky

I used to want you to hold me in your arms,
just to hear your heartbeat

I used to love the sound your breathing made

I used to see you in the clouds
on a bright sunny day

As the tears flow down my face
I think to myself the way you used to look in my eyes
and tell me that I was your only one

I used to feel like I could trust you with my life

If I ever jumped off a building or flew through the air like a bird
off of the waterfall into the ocean,
I did it because I knew you would be there to hold my trembling body

You used to soothe my aching heart when I was down

When no one cared about me,
you were there to make everything go away

You used to be the drug that cured my pain

I used to think you were the one,
the one who would never leave me

But I was wrong

When you walk through that door with your bag and the look of satisfaction to save your country

I knew you were never coming back

Until the men in the suites with your dog tag,
came to my front door

I couldn't breathe

I couldn't see anything,
but the man I used to love

The man who went to Iraq

The man who went saved the world from a war that cost him his life